The Road is Forested

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In June Phil and I set off in our latest van (RIP the Bus-with-a-woodstove!) For our first-ever trip abroad. We’ve spent years exploring all the corners of the British Isles but this was the first time we’d taken the van on the ferry to Europe. As we now live in Hull, we had only a short drive down the Clive Sullivan way to the ferry. It was exciting to have a cabin of our own, and entertainment laid on for the night. (Yeah, I know: little things please little minds, etc.) We stood on the top deck as we sailed out of the Humber, while Phil helped me plot a future novel, which would involve this very estuary. There was a rainbow to cheer us on our way.

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I can’t say I slept that well – I don’t like total darkness and so I had to keep putting the light on. No worries for Phil though, it takes a lot to wake him up! The next morning, we obtained a free breakfast because the card machine wasn’t working. Then we drove off the ferry and into Holland. We also passed through a corner of Belgium before entering Germany.

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We were headed for Stuttgart and planned to arrive there the following afternoon. (The extra special purpose of the trip was to attend my youngest son’s wedding!) Phil drove and drove and after a while I kept falling asleep and waking up with a snort. It was hot, too. I was pleased when we stopped for the night in the beautiful Mosel Valley, surrounded by vineyards.

 

Fortunately, a wine-tasting session was just about to begin as we arrived. We bought six bottles. Later we went for an evening walk.

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I had no idea  Holland, Belgium and Germany were covered in so much forest. No wonder there are so many European fairy tales set in the deepest, darkest woods. I was blown away by the Baden Württemberg landscape. I fell in love with Germany.

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Forests, forests as far as the eye can see. this is the view from the road and it goes on and on. After another long day of Phil driving, and me falling asleep and waking up to make tea and serve lunch in some of the beautifully-landscaped and well-provisioned laybys (no height barriers or ‘No Overnight Camping’ signs such as we’re accustomed to in the UK, here) We arrived at the final, busy stretch of road into Stuttgart. My son and his wife are both world foot-travellers. They met in Iceland, and I was privileged to be present at the time so I’m so happy he’s married Jacky. They’re planning to live and work in Stuttgart for a few years and they’ve just moved into an apartment. This is the view from their balcony: (as you can see, it’s only a short walk into the forest.)

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Phil and I slept in a parking lot by a running track, a short walk from their apartment. The next morning, Jacky took us to the Stadtbibliothek Stuttgart, a library that looks as though it ought to feature in a Sci-Fi film. We climbed up to the roof for an amazing view of Stuttgart. It was humbling to hear of the city being flattened during the Second World War.

 

Phil and I went on into Stuttgart for lunch and a look around.

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Schloss Platz

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That evening, Phil and I met the rest of the family at Jacky’s parents’ house. We were treated to an amazing meal and lots, and lots of wine. The following morning we put on our glad rags and set off from the hotel with some of our new relatives-to-be for the train into Ditzingen where the wedding was to take place at the Rathaus (town hall). There was time to take tea in the market square beforehand.

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I can’t even describe the joy of what followed…

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Leaving the Rathaus, Jacky’s colleagues at the market stall presented the couple with balloons and a vegetable-bouquet. Caat, the dog Zak and Jacky rescued in Catalonia, was present throughout the whole day. Jacky wore a traditional dress that had belonged to her great-grandmother. Luckily, Zak’s outfit matched perfectly.

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The three men at the feast are Zak’s father, stepfather and father-in-law 🙂

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Photographs in the park between wedding cake and dinner… (Zak’s dad on the right and stepdad on the left)

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An outdoor living-room…

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Ulrika, one of Jacky’s grandmas, made the couple a personalised quilt as a wedding present.

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I’ll finish up with some photos from the second week of Phil’s and my journey…

 

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My Dogs in my Books

Our beautiful, black Labrador, Riley, travelled all over the UK with Phil and I in our former van, the bus-with-a-woodstove. Similarly to ‘Jack’ in my novel The Eliza Doll. Jack lives in a van with his companion, Ellie, who travels the country selling her handmade dolls at craft fairs. Jack is modelled entirely on Riley.

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It nearly broke our hearts when Riley had to be put down in 2016. He had poisoned himself by eating what we think may have been a death cap mushroom.

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We now have two rescued dogs who were both found on the streets of Romania. Luna, my birthday present two years ago, came to live with us when Riley was still alive. They were a perfect visual contrast and shared a brief love. Luna had been found in a cardboard box…

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…on the street in Budapest with her two sisters at the age of about five months. Riley helped her acclimatise to family

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(and beach) life.

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In my sixth novel, Luna ‘plays’ Alicia, a white stray dog that adopts my character Maya, while she’s living in a Catalonian mountain community. The Vagabond Mother, as yet unpublished, is the story of a middle-aged woman who takes off with a backpack, in search of her missing son. In the book, Alicia follows Maya as she leaves the community she’s been staying at to hitch hike to Barcelona, and Maya ends up taking her back to the UK with her. Alicia is as loyal, nervous and loving as my own lovely Luna.

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Pixie is the second dog we adopted from Seven Strays Dog Rescue. It was too sad that Riley had to be put down and that Luna was left alone, so we chose a smaller dog to keep her company. Allow me to present introduce Miss Pixie:

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Pixie was also abandoned in Romania. She had a puppy, who has now also been rehomed in the UK.

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Pixie ‘stars’ in my fifth novel (currently out on submission) Sea Babies. Pixie plays a similarly-small, brown dog call Titania (Tatty) who’s dumped on my main character, Lauren. Lauren quickly grows to love Tatty and they explore the wild countryside of Uig on the Isle of Lewis together (see second-to-top picture in this post) and Tatty comforts Lauren while she comes to terms with a recent, drastic change in circumstances

Luna and Pixie love each other, and they love me and Phil and our cat, Pheoby. The Girls (including the cat) are happy whether we’re off on one adventure or another in our van, but also when we cuddle up on the sofa at home.

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Oh, and here’s a picture of Pheoby, the camping cat. I really must add a strong, female cat character in my next book…

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Another Rebecca News!

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I’m excited to announce that Another Rebecca (originally published by @InspiredQuill in 2015, will be re-released with a brand-new cover by @wildpressed in September this year.

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Here’s the blurb:

Rebecca Grey can’t shake off the hallucination she had while in hospital, but her alcoholic mother Bex is too wrapped up in the ‘Great Grief’ of her youth to notice her daughter’s struggle to define dream from reality.
The two of them lurch from one poverty-stricken situation to another. But why does an old woman she has never met believe she is Rebecca’s grandmother, and why did Bex swear to stop living when she was only nineteen?
Another Rebecca is a family story of secrets, interdependency and obsessive love.
Another Rebecca was inspired by the painting ‘There is no Night’ by Jack B. Yeats.

INTERVIEW WITH THE AUTHOR
Tracey Scott-Townsend on ANOTHER REBECCA

 

1) Comparing the writing of my second novel, Another Rebecca with my first, The Last Time We Saw Marion?

The seeds of both novels were sewn in 1989 when I lived alone in a flat in Hull. I was between two long-term relationships and in the third year of my art degree. I did a lot of writing as well as painting. The Last Time We Saw Marion was a novel from its inception, but Another Rebecca began as a short story, inspired by the painting There is No Night by Jack B. Yeats.
I began my full-time writing career in 2010 when my job as a teacher ended. By this time I had married for a second time, after being a single parent to my four children for ten years. I resurrected the 1989 draft of The Last Time We Saw Marion and completely re-wrote it. While the completed book was doing the rounds of agents and small presses, I started to develop my short story There is No Night into a second novel which became Another Rebecca.
Writing, rewriting and several rounds of edits of my first book had taught me that for me the production of a novel to the standard that I want it to be is a long process

I learned along the way by experimentation and whatever feedback I could glean from multiple rejections of The Last Time We Saw Marion. In writing Another Rebecca I had more experience and also some highly professional input, such as a workshop with one of my most-admired writers, Audrey Niffenegger.

2) Family is an important theme in my writing.

I am a product of the things that have happened to me, the decisions I’ve made and the actions I’ve taken. Childhood is a deeply buried influence in anyone.
I believe I’m susceptible to some degree of synaesthesia: a name would always conjure a colour in my mind’s eye and a picture, a snippet of music, a smell or a touch evokes memories in the same way that a film is brought on screen at the touch of a button.
I resurrect memories from my childhood onwards and dissipate them into plot lines. New characters are born from the cells of the disappeared versions of me and my past.
I am a daughter, a sister and a mother. I’ve experienced losses and gains in all of these roles. Because my novels are essentially about the human condition; family, in whatever form it occurs, cannot help but be an important theme to me.

3) Narrative voices.

I tend to use more than one narrative voice in my novels. Initially Another Rebecca was told exclusively from the close first-person perspectives of Rebecca and Bex. But the reader could only see and know what these two claustrophobically intertwined characters were telling us and there was too much story to be told effectively in this way. So I brought in Jack, Rebecca’s father, as the third first-person narrator. He also steps back and gives us a wider view of the character of Bex in the past which helps to give us the full story.

4) The settings in Another Rebecca.

The book is set in England and Ireland. Skegness, where Rebecca lives at the beginning of the story, was my local seaside town when I lived in Lincoln. Rebecca then moves to a caravan in a Lincolnshire village which is based on the real village of North Scarle where I lived in a caravan when I was Rebecca’s age. My father built a house on the site.
Rebecca visits her aunt in County Leitrim, Ireland, where my sister lived for a long time. Then Rebecca goes to live in a fictional house in the village of Newtown Linford in Leicestershire. I have been camping with my children in this district for more than 20 years, so I know the area well. It’s on the edge of Bradgate Park. This is the home of Lady Jane Grey, the nine-day queen of England, who appears to Rebecca in the park and gives her some salient advice. I’m familiar with the location because I go to a camp in some adjacent woodland every year, and we always take a walk through the village to the park.

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The Maiden Quartet

MAIDEN YOUNG

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Stood in Assembly
Tension in the back of my neck
I thought everyone would notice
How my head
Trembled on its stem.

Someone told me I’d been
Left on the shelf.
Up there in the dust
I hardly knew myself.

Walked out of school on the last day
Disappeared from memory.

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Once told me I was beautiful
I can’t remember
In what context
But it was during a group meal
On a college trip to Cambridge.

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And went to sleep on my sister’s floor.
Sometimes she let me sleep in her bed
If she was bringing someone back
And needed time to decide
But then I had to move again
In the middle of the night.

Sitting in a crowded room,
The air thickened by a smoky haze
Dustmotes danced on rays
Music played, top volume.
There were endless cups of tea.
I never knew what to say.

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My sister accompanied me
To the family planning clinic
Saying I should always be
Prepared.

It was on a blue and yellow day
When I met him.
We clashed eyes in a noon-time club.
My sister was there, we both knew his brother
I felt he and I
Recognised each other.
We fell out of the dim interior
Into sunlight, traffic noise
And Saturday shoppers.

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I felt the hairs on his arm brush mine
As we walked side by side
On the busy street.
Sunshine forced my eyes into a squint
And tiny stones from the pavement
Got caught between my sandal soles
And my bare feet
But most of all I was aware
Of our electric arm hair.

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I wore a belted shirt
With knees-ripped jeans
My hair henna-red.
His t-shirt sparkled white,
And he carried a leather jacket
The sun made a golden halo
Around his head.

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We chatted, glanced shyly at each other
And smiled
Weaving our way through crowds
On the summer Saturday streets.
When were young
And not quite holding hands.

MAIDEN RENEWED

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With the radio she sings Sail Away
Rocking with her arms around herself,
Forgetting the damp laundry in the hallway but

Remembering his fingers on the keyboard
And later on her skin.
When the children are away
She’s a renewed maiden
She dances now like she danced with him
When he told her she was so tempting

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Gripped her hand so tightly
She felt his fingers on her bones
Honey, sail away with me
But she was tied to family and home
The youngest of her children only three.

Clouds threaten the perfect sky
She lugs the basket onto the trodden grass,
Thinking of insects underfoot
Going about their daily business.
A wren flits from the birdhouse in a tree.
She lifts her arms to the washing line
Feels the first spots of rain
Too late now to get the laundry dry
But she hangs it out anyway
Takes the empty basket back inside.

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A text pings from her mobile
Sorry, I won’t be there this weekend
He says there’ll be an email to follow
She steps over disappointment like the
Children’s toys,

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Hugs herself again,
Thinks about tidying
But there’s too much crap to sort through.

She flops down on the sofa
Hands pressed into eyes, to stop the crying.

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He burrowed into her shoulder
As they lay on this sofa
The last time her children were away
He’d said: You’re just so likeable
But it hadn’t been enough
To make him stay.
They’d all used similar terms: Soft as shit,
And: You’re just too nice
As if this was the crime for which she’d pay.

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A woman sings on the radio
In a voice like liquid
Rain flicks on the windows and
She watches it stream down the glass.
Now men will want her, the words go,
‘Cause life don’t haunt her
But neither line is true.

And all the time she’s crying
The washing’s still out on the line,
Not drying.

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Two years out of marriage, she’d
Made it back to maidenhood
Everything closed,
To be reopened.
Older but no less naïve, if not more.
Four children, four!
Proved to be more of a barrier than she’d thought.

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In the hot tub
He said he had to take the risk
Of never finding another like her
Whose children were too many. In the end
He chose a woman with only two
And twice her income.
That loss, of self-esteem, of hope,
Was the one that hurt the most.

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Singing water, singing hands,
Hot water on the underside of her skin
The cold rain glancing from above,
Leaves trapped in a circle of light
Around the hot tub.

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They sat there late into the night,
Are you all right there, honey? Sail away with me, honey.
But she was too late.
I most definitely do love you, he said
But I have chosen Kate.

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The last things she saw of him
Were the buttons on his uniform
And when she later heard an aeroplane
She buried her face in her own hair,
Refusing to look into the air.

After a train journey home, for the first time
She took the grief into her family.
She resisted its rise into resentment,
Like yeast in dough.
She battled its attempt to subsume her
And she wrestled it to the ground.

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MOTHER of the MAID

When she comes in the house
You shout Hi
But you hear the door slam
And it makes you want to cry
Because you know the confusion
Behind her face
You were once there
In a similar place.

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She thinks she hates you
But you know you love her
And the one thing that’s sure
Is that you’re her mother
She’s so raw and tender
You try hard not to break her

But you still feel hurt
When she places cold remarks
Around your fragile motherwall
More than anything
You want to hear her laugh and sing
Like she did when she was small

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But there’s no sticking plaster
Or magic kiss
Or tell-her-a-story that will fix
The broken world that makes her sad
And that makes you mad.

Then she sees your anger
And she thinks it’s against her
But it never was
It was always because
You were powerless
To help her.
All you could do
Was strengthen your motherwall
For her to beat her fists upon
And get stronger.

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You’re proud of her
But nervous too
Because she’s a carbon copy of you
And you wouldn’t know what to do
If she did all the things you used to.

You wish she was stronger
Than you think you were
And you wish she could see
That she’s so lovely
Like you never felt.

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You want her to embrace
All the things you couldn’t face
But most of all you hope
She stays safe.

You want her to be happy
Whatever she does
Everything’s her own choice
She has her own voice

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The one fear you had
Was that she’d be taken advantage of
Mentally or physically.
You feared that she
Wouldn’t be accepted for
The person she is.

You hope you can teach her about relationships
But you want her to make decisions that are sage
And not take on the worries
You had at her age.

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You wonder who she’ll choose
To partner her in life
And hope that it’s someone
Who walks alongside
Without an agenda of dominance
Or pride.

You picture the babies that she
Might have
And if so, hope she experiences the joy
And love
And accomplishment
Of maternal nourishment
Like you did.

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You hope she remembers
You’ll always be there
For a reboot or some mothering care
And that it
Gives her the strength not to
Take any shit.
From anyone.

MAIDEN REMADE

We carve water with our hands
Shape ripples
Plough channels.
We inhale,
We exhale,
We leave a trail of bubbles
In our wake.

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We sculpt the silver element
Painting light on its surface
Drawing lines in it with our bodies
We stroke the waves.
Groom the water
That filters like silk
Through our fingers.

We inhale,
We exhale.

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Our bodies feel weightless,
Slipping like seals
Through the foam.
We reform
Underwater,
Emerge on dry land
Unfamiliar
Like a new body
Has taken us over.

It works differently,
Giving more time
To our mind.

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We can’t see clearly without our glasses on
Though clearer, in some ways
Than ever before.
We don’t mind the folds of flesh
Unfolding
As we undress.
We let our bodies fall
Into place
When fabric releases us.

We’re not here to people-please
In our nakedness.
We have dry skin,
Red patches appearing,
Feminine ‘issues’
And hot flushes
As we
Transition
Into the remade maiden.

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In the changing room we once
Held a baby on the bench with our knee
While we
Struggled to dress ourselves,
A toddler pulling at our clothes.

Now we shed our clothes
With hands free,
Thinking of how
Those days
Seem no more than a moment ago.

Wrapping our spectacles carefully
To avoid breakage
We close the locker.
Fumble our way to the pool-entrance
And slip into the water.

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Poem (2018) and all artwork (c) Tracey Scott-Townsend. Images of performance captured from phone video-footage shot by Kirsten Luckins of Apples & Snakes. @applesNorth @arcstockton #Derangedpoetesses #maidens

Performance “MAIDENS” for Deranged Poetesses, an Apples & Snakes commission at Arc Stockton on 10th March 2018.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On accepting the inevitable…

The good, the bad (and the ugly) of ageing: Terry Tyler’s thoughts

I constantly remind myself to maintain a positive attitude on getting older because my older sister’s life finished when she was six years younger than I am now.  Something that never fails to shock me. Maybe there’s a new blog post in that. But for now, I’m focussing on women’s views on their own ageing process. I recently wrote a post for A Daydreamer’s thoughts blog. You can read it here: My thoughts

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A day in the life of author…Tracey Scott-Townsend

Thank you to Louise Jensen for giving me the opportunity to rave about my beloved shed, which I have now left behind in Lincoln *weeps a little*. But at least I have my lovely pseudo-shed at my new home in Hull…

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Hmm writing in a ‘shed’ with no wi-fi distractions may be the key to being more productive. Tracey, do share more about your day.

For a good deal of my writing life (which began full-time in 2010) my office has been a shed in the garden. As it happens I’m currently packing up my shed in preparation for a house move so I’m having to work in the house. I find this distracting, due to my two captivating rescue dogs wanting my attention so much of the time. I also have other intrusive business going on at the moment, mostly stemming from the house sale.

At our new home in Hull I’ve created a cosy ‘shed’ by dividing an alcove off from the main part of the spare room. I hope I feel secure and isolated (in a good way) in there in the same way as I do going…

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Not Invisible 

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In my young-adult days I was frivolous and needy
As a young mother I tried too hard to please.                  Now I’m adventurous,                                                 Successful and cheeky

And I have been for a while.

My motorcycle helmet has taught me                                That I don’t always have to smile.
She replaces the helmet on her steel-grey hair                 And sits confidently back in her chair.                        Beneath the visor you can tell her                                     Mind is on her next adventure.

Friday afternoons in my art college days                                I chose fabric from the market,                                             The next woman says.

I made a complete Saturday night outfit                          Right down to my hat and bag,                                     Without a pattern, Just my imagination.                                 I designed myself the way I wanted to be.

Like me, says another. I still have some of my curtain-fabric skirts, I loved the big, bold prints.

I travelled to different cities to see my favourite bands        I danced all night                                                                     And slept at railway stations                                         Because there were no trains home.

My younger self was restless and spontaneous.               Now that I’m older I don’t feel much different               Apart from the Arthritis!

I piloted an aircraft, solo when I was seventeen, the fourth woman tells.                                                                Now I’m seen as the village wise-woman,           Resourceful, reliable, helpful and calm.                              She smiles                                                                                   But that achievement was what made me feel I could do anything.                                                                                    She sits down.

I was a punk, says one.
I trekked up the Lost World Mountain, says another.      The rest of the women join in –

I took the magic bus to India,

I lived in a commune by the sea,

I abseiled down the Humber Bridge,

I was the one who climbed the highest tree.

Then they spent years known as Mother, known as Wife, As the woman at the supermarket till, As the one who organised the bills.

They were the accountant, the doctor, the solicitor, the receptionist. The bra-fitter at Marks & Spencer’s, The teacher, The nurse at the hospital, The door-factory manager.

They were the one who made sure your belly was full And you went to bed on time. You thought they’d be lonely when you all left home                                              And their retirement party at work was done

But now they’ve stepped out of their roles                  They’re on a roll.

They’ve started all over again                                               And it’s just like when they were young.

It doesn’t matter that their backpack’s now on wheels   And they have to remember to take their pills                 And they wear comfy trainers instead of heels               And they don’t drink as much as they did                  Because it goes straight to their head.

When their busy day is done                                                The best treat they can think of is to go to bed

With a book.

Yeah,

I said a book.

Tracey Scott-Townsend 2017

Nationality by Valerie Pate

A poem about belonging by my Friend Valerie. Courtesy of Celebratingchange.blog

Celebrating Change

Nationality

The TV presenters are shouting.

Every line they deliver is accentuated by dramatic pauses and rising crescendos.

I scan the jammed airport terminal,

attempting to spy a man under forty not clad in a cap.

The voices are too loud; jarring.

I have returned once more to the U. S. of A.

“Welcome home,” they beam at immigration.

The stamp comes down upon the page of my passport,

signifying yet another Trans-Atlantic crossing;

but these alien surroundings no longer feel like home.

When had my alignment shifted?

My internal compass persistently swings me back to that island nation of

patchwork fields and cobbled cities,

cloaked in history and flush with culture.

I am gaping at my “light bite”;

freshly perplexed by the mammoth sandwich that spills past the plate’s edge,

as if boasting its own preposterous proportions.

My stomach turns as ruckus commotions ricochet around me; obnoxiously intrusive,

prompting…

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Book Review: Maria In The Moon by Louise Beech

Maria in the Moon

Maria in the Moon is my favourite Louise Beech book yet. My primary concern for an enjoyable read is the believability of the characters. Story, although important, comes second to the author’s ability to immerse me in the truth of the world they’ve created.

Catherine-Maria, the book’s main character, is so tangible. She’s grumpy and difficult and all the more loveable for her evident faults and often unreasonable behaviour. She encompasses all those embarrassing times you’ve stormed out of a room and snapped the things you never meant to say during an argument. When all she really wanted to say was how lost and alone she felt. Her relationship with her mother (who isn’t her real mum) is painful and constricted and she suffers from amnesia of part of her childhood.

Every time I read one of Louise’s books I learn something. How To Be Brave taught me about Type-1 diabetes and what it must be like to be adrift on a raft in the ocean. The Mountain in my Shoe taught me about the intricacies of the Care System. Maria in the Moon brings vividly to life the aftermath of the 2007 Hull floods and how they continued to affect the lives of victims long after the waters had receded.

Catherine feels compelled to work the phone lines in a Crisis Centre for those affected by the floods. Catherine finds it impossible to talk about her own night-terrors and the reasons she feels dissociated from everyone around her, yet she longs to listen to the problems and difficulties of others. Perhaps it makes her feel that little bit more real.

Although she’s as close as she can allow herself to be to her flatmate, Fern, it’s Christopher, a fellow-worker at the Flood Crisis call centre who finally gets through to Catherine and helps her recover the awful memory that’s been blocking her emotional progress since she was nine.

I would recommend Maria in the Moon to any reader who loves a novel with emotional depth, strongly-drawn characters and exquisite writing.

The Blurb: Long ago my beloved Nanny Eve chose my name. Then one day she stopped calling me it. I try now to remember why, but I just can’t.’ Thirty-two-year-old Catherine Hope has a great memory. But she can’t remember everything. She can’t remember her ninth year. She can’t remember when her insomnia started. And she can’t remember why everyone stopped calling her Catherine-Maria. With a promiscuous past, and licking her wounds after a painful breakup, Catherine wonders why she resists anything approaching real love. But when she loses her home to the devastating deluge of 2007 and volunteers at Flood Crisis, a devastating memory emerges … and changes everything. Dark, poignant and deeply moving, Maria in the Moon is an examination of the nature of memory and truth, and the defences we build to protect ourselves, when we can no longer hide…

Louise

About the author: Louise Beech has always been haunted by the sea. She regularly writes travel pieces for the Hull Daily Mail, where she was a columnist for ten years. Her short fiction has won the Glass Woman Prize, the Eric Hoffer Award for Prose, and the Aesthetica Creative Works competition, as well as shortlisting for the Bridport Prize twice and being published in a variety of UK magazines. Louise lives with her husband and children on the outskirts of Hull – the UK’s 2017 City of Culture – and loves her job as a Front of House Usher at Hull Truck Theatre, where her first play was performed in 2012. She was also part of the Mums’ Army on Lizzie and Carl’s BBC Radio Humberside Breakfast Show for three years.

More about Louise Beech here

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